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January 30th, 2014

******WARNING!!!!!*******  Long and sometimes incoherent rant ahead!!!!

Changing the words may change a life.

While at work last night a young girl (about 7yrs) and her father came in for dinner.  He had a burger and fries with gravy, she has a child’s pasta with a piece of garlic bread.  She was still hungry and wished for another piece  of garlic bread.  She was told no as she was too chubby.  (To me, she looked healthy)

She is just a little girl.  What are we teaching her?  Good eating habits? Or perhaps that she is not good enough.  At this age she will already be exposed to the media message of ‘being less’.

It starts at this age when we women start to be shown that only women who are small are beautiful, smart and desired.  That we need to look a certain way to be successful, happy and desired.

It is also at this age that a young girl starts the inevitable travel to puberty.  She is becoming increasingly aware of her body.

How often do you comment to about a youngster about how they look?  ‘Oh look how pretty she is/handsome he is!’

What if you changed just a few words?  What if you looked for the potential in that child?  Perhaps the intelligence shining through their eyes strikes you.  Perhaps they have incredible natural creativity.  Perhaps they have a happy disposition that makes you smile.

Just a few words can make a world of difference.

Try with the next child you meet…..hmmm…thinking about that, that would be you.  How about changing the way you talk to yourself too?  Chances are you are very hard on yourself and find yourself lacking.  If so, how is your child going to view themselves when the light of their world is found to be insufficient, how can they be enough?

So, yes.  Start there and spread it to the children in your lives. Love yourself.  Be kind to yourself. Take the space up that you need to realize your full potential.

then eat the damned extra piece of bread because that one piece is not going to wreck your life.  You are so much more than that.  Nourish your body with food and activity.  Fill your soul.

You are valued. You are loved. You are enough.

January 28th 2014 Remember today is text day for mental awareness

Where has this month gone??!

This past week was a bit of a bust for me exercise wise.  Not saying that I didn’t move my body.  I just didn’t do as much formal exercise as planned.  Only one session of weight lifting.  Lots of snow shovelling though!  I think that gives me plenty of lifting and cardio all in one 😀  I will call it a ‘wash’.

I have not been tracking my food at all.  Nope.  Not a scrap.  I still am not mentally able to.  I feel that it will send me into a spiral of restriction and over-exercise.  I have caught myself over the week being critical of my body.  ‘Look at all that fat on our stomach, you are going to have to get strict and only eat veggies’  …..  ‘oh gawd, look, it is all coming back’  ….   you are going to have to go out and buy a tent to put  on that body’  This is the old me I have been battling so hard to rid myself of.

I did go out and buy new pants.


They are jeggings I guess.  skinny stretch pretend they are jeans….  They are shiny.  They fit.  They were cheap (on sale 15 from 49)!  I bought 2 pair (shhhh…don’t tell hubby)  The reason I bought 2 pair.  I bought the first pair a size larger than my current pants (that are tight and all stretched out)  Took them home, tried them on.  Ok, ok…I tried to try them on.  Went back to the store, traded them in for the next size up.  Brought them home.  Got them on.  Buttoned them up.  yay!  but….just…not…comfortable.  I put them in my drawer.  The next day I went back to the store and bought the next size up.  I just kept telling myself it is not the size it is the comfort that matters.  Swallowed my size pride and am now rocking a size 16 jegging.  I have to write that down.  That is a hard pill for me to swallow.  It is reality.  It is my new place to just be.

I am continuing to eat the food.  I am eating what appeals to me, no matter what it is.  I think I am eating enough.  I have only felt some real hunger after having the 24 hour bug this weekend and only had a couple slices of toast during the day.  I feel I moved my body enough this week. Step, shovel, lift, throw, repeat x about 200 x 3 snowfalls 🙂

I have been getting busy working on my creative side and having fun with that.

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I am still working on my one special project which has been delayed (sound guy is on a cruise :/ )  lucky guy!  I hope it will be finished soon after *crosses fingers*

What have you been up to?  How are you moving?  How do you express your creative side?